echoes of déjà vu
i can imagine this place
it's on the tip of my tongue
a gentle wind stirs the leaves
tires turn onto gravel
and i'm reminded
of all the people i never met
and come to think of it
how many times
does an owl sound in the distance
or tobacco linger sweetly
for all the times and places undiscovered
by you and me



April 2020
dream of a reasonable response
i tell myself i can't
those urges subordinate to ‘real progress’
stubborn in bad stillness
judging every moment
betrayed myself again


is there a place left on earth
for those who want to forget
the need for legacy
and all the accidental learnings
the imposed
desires & doubts
social currencies
which pretend to be concrete
but are illusory


where is the ancient carving
that explains human progress,
written quotationally


if i could just write how i feel
come to terms with
how i compute
how i refuse to live
maybe i would risk my pride
but live a little better for it


lacking spiritual context
the trajectory of a human life
year: 2019
doesn't bare much logic, we're told
unless tethered to the strange notion
that a great human potential
is some multiplication of time, money
and status
with obsession


and i’ve forgotten the currency with which
time and time again
money has meant nothing
til i return to myself
heart beating clear and free
realizing with tenderness
how the outer boundaries of earth
are as far as false currencies can get
because any further
and a dime ceases to be worth a dime


in a reality
stuck in a collective reality


it’s true
it can be beautiful
how effort and sacrifice and economics
human pain and suffering and joy
have come together to form
something sur-mountable for us
to learn whatever is our lesson


so if i can live in the world
but as some strange entity of my own design
heavens reclaimed
evolutionized
optimized
and charitable
without seeming a bastard
flogging its way forward blindly
then i think it’s possible
to keep dreaming of a reasonable response



February 2020
Lemon Peppers and the Day Duck Left Home for Good

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March 31 2020